It’s been 28 days since Lent started and 32 since my last drink!
This is the longest in my drinking years I have gone without a drop of alcohol.
And you know what?
I feel fine.
I feel good actually.
Every Friday my boyfriend and I (still) go to Cooper’s Hawk Restaurant & Winery for dinner. He’ll have a glass of wine and I’ll have a S.Pellegrino in a wine glass with a lime wedge and feel fancy af. Our conversations are (still) intellectual and fun and we (still) go to Pinstripes after where he has another glass of wine while we chat with the bartenders we’ve come to know as friends.
My life hasn’t stopped, nor should it, because I gave up drinking. I didn’t give up my social life. I’m not triggered by the smell of wine. I’m just having fun!
When you face your fears head on, in my case it was surrounding myself with alcohol knowing I wouldn’t be able to drink it, I was able to overcome the anxiety and see that it wasn’t that scary after all. Holding onto my water glass gave me the same feeling as holding onto a glass of wine – just different liquid.
This got me thinking – what else am I afraid of that if I just embrace might not actually be that scary after all?
Well let me tell you what else I’ve done –
For the past 2.5 weeks I have been waking up at 4:50am to throw on my workout clothes and do T-25 a 25 minute workout that by the time I realize I’m working out at 5:30am it’s already done!
Part of me feels like if I was still drinking my body and mind would be too tired to get up and get moving! I wouldn’t sleep through the night as soundly as I have been and my energy levels wouldn’t be where they are!
In addition to that something that happened on a more serious level – my mom had a seizure last week and was taken to the ER. All of this coupled with not being able to drink was stressful because my immediate thought was to have a glass of wine but being able to work through my emotions was eye opening.
Instead, I took time to reflect and remind myself that I am on a positive and healthy path. After coming home from my parents house I took a warm bubble bath, lit a candle, made a cup of tea, turned on Vintage Glam Radio from Spotify and opened my copy of Like She Owns the Place by Cara Alwill Leyba.
Life always throws curve-balls at us even if it’s not directly happening to us. It’s a matter of how we choose to react and the energy we put into each situation. My mom is doing better and I’m so glad! This is also a further reason for me to stay on the path I’m on and continue to be healthier and think more positively.
So Cheers to the rest of the week (with my S.Pellegrino in my wine glass)!